.4 Lbs

Doesn't sound like much but that is only because it is a loss and not a gain. Keeping at it for this weeks weigh in, haven't been the best this week and am feeling kind of like a failure. I can do this and getting back on track is easier when you can still see the track and your friends are traveling on it too.
Thanks to all of you for following this even though I was so bad about posting for so long.

Hate days like today

I was doing so good this week and today I just want to eat everything in sight, I am frustrated because there is a project I was going to work on today and I can't because I don't have a space to do it. I don't feel like cleaning again because it makes me feel like Sisyphus and I am feeling kind of down too, which never helps. I just want to sit and eat until I can't eat any more. Not sure if it's due to boredom or ovulation, or emotions or all of them combined in a perfect storm. I need to still keep track and keep accountable regardless of if it turns into a binge though. (Did I mention I hate days like today?)

4.2lbs

It is a good start, and I am happy with it. I still have a crazy long way to go but, I am doing good and I am only 6lbs away from my first minigoal, to get back to where I was when I tumbled from the wagon.
I can do that in three weeks tops. My goal after that is 25lbs more and so on from there. It so helps to have support and people I love on this journey with me. It helps me to stay focused and keep accountable when I don't necessarily feel like "being good". Love 2011 so far and hope it keeps loving me.

Okay so I know I said Wednesday but....

I decided to blog today too, so sue me.
Anyway today was a cheat day in the biggest sense of the word. We went to Red Robin for lupper and wow, I went over my calories for the day by 600. (yikes.) Also, no gym today so it isn't like I burned a bunch off either. Oh well, back on track tomorrow. I am Scarlett, my sister is right. I think that is why I wear a procrastination t-shirt to the gym.
I am keeping down the calories everywhere else today so as not to undo all the work I have put in this week. Currently enjoying a hot cup of orange spice tea with splenda and loving it.
Don't really have much else though so until, Wednesday, or whenever I feel like it.

Can't get motivated to clean

Did my crunches, had a bagel with hummus for breakfast, had a salad with grilled chicken for lunch. I have set my first goal on "Sparkpeople.com" I want to be at 235 by the beginning of July. I am hoping if I can get there by that point then everything else will be gravy as that is the smallest I have been in my adult life. If I can just keep exercising and eating right it shouldn't be that hard right? Not sure but I am going to try. My final goal will still put me at "obese" but I could be okay with that if I can shop for clothes at regular stores without having to wait until I lose some weight before it fits "comfortably".