Weigh in day

1.6lbs, which is good but I was awesome this week and was hoping my loss would be too...
Oh well, just have to keep at it. I want to start getting over to the pool whenever I can and also doing more of my "on the ball" exercises. We shall see if it makes any difference.
I am kind of frustrated because although I know I am getting smaller and my clothes are getting more loose, when I measured myself the other day I had actually gone up from when I measured myself in February. My friend Deborah says that unless you know exactly where you measured yourself last time you can never know if you got the right spot again or not, and that an inch up or down can make a huge difference. I don't know but as long as my clothes keep getting bigger I am happy.
My sister in law gave me some old clothes this week and I haven't tried them on yet. (I keep forgetting them in the trunk of the car.) I am hoping they can be motivation to keep on track. We shall see. I also have my favorite capris that fit before I put back on all of this weight, and I am hoping to fit into them comfortably by July...we shall see.
I also am glad that I have a sewing machine now so that I can actually do some alterations on my clothes when the time comes. I don't know that I will actually do any real alterations or just add darts into my pants, pleats are still in right? Who cares I will be sooooo happy to have to take them in I will be unstylish and relish my pleats and what they stand for.
Gotta get back to work now....

Yesterday

I went to the gym with Deb and we swam and used the epsom salt spa, which by the way was amazing, and I got to see all of the equiptment they have there and I wish I could afford a gym membership. But we still have to get the Kia fixed and all the other expenses we always seem to have crop up so...nevermind. I do have a pool at my complex I will just have to force myself to use it every chance I get this year; speaking of, it just opened gotta suit up.

Swimming today

My friend from work and I are going swimming at her gym today which means I will put on a bathing suit in public. The weird thing is I am not dreading it as much as I thought I would, I am just looking forward to going swimming and maybe learning some new exercises that I can do in my apartment pool when it actually doesn't rain this summer.
I just wish it wasn't raining so that I could go swimming in my apartment pool, but that is okay.
This whole process has been made so much easier by my sister being so strong on her end of our support network. She has tons of stuff going on daily and she doesn't bury herself in Oreos (tm) so why should I?
Tracy, you are my new hero. I am so proud of you, let's just say that if I were in the position you are I would be swimming in baked mac&cheese you are a rockstar and I love you.

I will not use stress as an excuse

Every other time I have started to do really well with dieting and healthy lifestyle changes, I have had some major life event or uproar which has caused me to go back to the shelter of junk food and grease. I am not going to do that this time. My husband's health and my health are too important to me to let it be taken away by a temporary situation which I have no control over.
I will stay on track regardless.
I just need to focus harder on my goals and make sure I know how much more they mean to me than the temporary comfort I get from baked mac & cheese.
I will be strong, at least in this.

Feels weird to be this healthy...

Okay, so my latest favorite snack is 1/2 original fiber one cereal, with 1/2 cup of almond milk and one strawberry cut up in it.
We are talking All Bran (tm) type cereal here. It is twigs and berries, literally!
I am a little surprised that I like it so much considering at one point in my life my favorite snack was cookie dough. I am not saying I don't still like cookie dough I am just noticing what an annomally I have become.
I wanted to go to my apartment complex's pool today and get in some exercise but it is raining so it looks like that won't happen. Hopefully it will be clear tomorrow and I can get over there after work to do some laps.
I am going over on Thursday morning with my friend from work, unless of course it rains then too. We shall see, but I do need to do some laundry today so maybe I will work out in the fitness room.
My newest drink obsession is Tazo(tm) Berry Blossom White(tm) it is a white tea that has hints of blueberry and cranberry. There was a study done that said that without making any lifestyle or diet changes at all, one cup of white tea a day and you will lose 4lbs in a year. So I figure, I love the taste of this tea and I have made drastic diet changes so it can't hurt right? Plus it is an antioxident with two other powerful antioxidents added so free radicals BEWARE!!!
I feel better but am still having really bad days with my back. I really need to get on track with strengthening my core muscles as those are the ones my chiropractor seemed to think would make vast improvement. The problem being most core strengthening exercises are pretty tough on your back. Kind of a catch 22. Hey if anyone knows of any that aren't please share.