WEIGH IN DAY!!!!

Down 3.5 more pounds and there you have it only 2ish pounds away from my first mini goal. I am so excited!
I just need to keep on track and all will come with time.
I am loving fresh veggies and salad everyday has yet to become boring. I actually have had kind of a hard time getting all of the calories in I am supposed to each day, which is good and bad. I also haven't had a problem reaching my fat goals but keep falling under with all of the other nutrients I am tracking. Fiber, Carbs, Protein, and calcium...may have to start having Slim Fast as my filler when I am having a hard time reaching my calories. I also want to get vitamins to start taking, with calcium if they have them out there.
I am feeling good, my clothes are fitting right again, might actually have to take one of my pairs of pants in...Woo Hoo!!!!

Weigh in success

2.5 more down baby, stand back I am a house on fire!
Also, my friend Deborah today gave me the green light to "be outrageous" for a while. Look out world I have a permission slip and I'm feeling kind of daring.

Grocery goals achieved

I didn't buy any "bad" stuff at the store when I went tonight. I even passed up Oreos that were on sale. (I am amazed myself at that one.)
I did get some Snackwells cookies and some 100 calorie pouches of cookies but I didn't get any of the really bad stuff which I might have wanted.
So all in all this week is looking good. I got plenty of salad fixin's and I got some celery to put my laughing cow on, so snack wise I am good to go, and dinners at work too.
I can't wait to get set into a new routine so that this comes a bit more naturally, that will come with time though.
I am on track right now and that is what matters. I am going to start really keeping track of my cigarettes too and am hoping to curb those til I can quit altogether again. (knock on wood)

didn't changes

Yeah, so now it looks like I only lost 2lbs but I am still where I thought I was after this week so YEAH GO ME!!!!
Really do need to get back to eating regularly, that may be the goal of the week this week. To redevelop some normalcy in my diet and sleep habits. We shall see.

Weigh in day tomorrow

I will admit I didn't weigh in last week officially but I had gained 2lbs then at midweek this week I was down 4 from the last time I posted weigh in so technically that was a 6lb loss, not surprising when you aren't eating too much but still; we shall have to see what tomorrow's weigh in reveals. Dum Dum Dum Dum (should sound ominous)

New idea for Jenny Craig

The stress can't sleep diet. (throw in having bought my first pack of cigarettes in 3 years, and you can watch the pounds melt away.)
Not really the most uplifting post but certainly honest.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life, you can do this. Not hungry today though so the minimum may have to be reached with fairly empty calories and coffee. (red cream soda anyone?)

new Pic???

I am trying to decide if I should update the photo, it is over a year old now and I have lost a little since then. I think I will wait until I reach the first of my "mini" goals, then take it. I now only have 14lbs to go to that point altough who knows after this week.
Sunday is going to be a cheat day again...state fair caliber cheat day. Elephant ears and fried Oreo cheat day...fair fries cheat day...oh yeah there will be much to attone for next week.
I have been good so far this week though keeping well under the max allotted calories each day. I don't feel like I am cheating myself, except when I want cheesey garlic bread and chicken parmasean....sigh...okay maybe I feel a little bit of self denial but come on in a life of excess a little bit of self denial is way too little self denial.
Gotta go get some breakfast. I think fat free cottage cheese and pineapple, then a bagel with hummus for lunch and my usual salad for dinner. I am loving salad!

3.5 more gone

Cool. 3.5 more pounds lost for a grand total since getting back on track of 18lbs. YEAH!
I am now only 14 more pounds until I reach my first mini goal. I can so handle that.
Which is why I am not focusing on the 40 to my first milestone, or the 15 more than that which brings me back to where I felt the best with my weight.
In about a year I am hoping to be back down to my goal weight. So next year at this time, when I go swimming it will be in a completely different bathing suit. I can so do this. Just have to keep on track and focus on my goals. It is getting easier not to cheat which is always the best point to get to.
I have a cheat day tomorrow and might have one each Sunday (which will make dinner with the inlaws easier to plan as I don't have to worry about counting calories that day.)
Anyway, I am feeling better everyday and keeping focused so, I guess there isn't really much more I can ask for.

Okay so...

I didn't weigh in myself but the people at my health screening for work weighed me and I know what their scale said. It said I didn't lose that 3lbs I did last week, so it means my scale and theirs didn't jibe so technically I didn't weigh in right? Or I gained back what I thought I lost....
Nevermind, either way I am being good, even didn't use my calories on DQ last night like I really wanted to and instead I came home had a Skinny Cow(tm) truffle bar and a bunch of sunflower seeds.
This morning so far it has been apple, yogurt and granola, I still need to have something else before work as I am bringing a salad again and it is only about 400 calories and so if I am going to make it to my minimum for the day I need to add some somewhere.
Sunday is going to be a cheat day this week, my friend is coming over to watch movies and I am going to make caramel corn and french onion soup so there you go.
But, I will go right back to being good afterward so it is okay.
I need to start excercising though, it is really the big missing piece of the puzzle. Yes I walk a bunch for work but it isn't doing any muscle building. So I need to start on the crunches again...blech.

Not going to weigh in until Saturday this week

I am going to stick to my guns this week and not going to sabotage myself by checking my weight in between weigh in days. This morning I think I am going to have my yogurt, apple, granola yumminess for breakfast then a bagel with hummus before I leave for work and a big ol' salad at work, which probably won't use all of my calories so I will have to Fiber1 bar it or something. I think I need to get some of the premixed Slim Fast shakes to make up the extra calories I need when I need them. I just wonder about the iodine in them and how severe a reaction I will have to them.
We shall see.
I love my new hairdo which was met with a good reaction on FB so I know it isn't just that I have bad taste. So why are complete strangers mentioning it? Don't really know but I have decided to just see it as my being a crazy beautiful trendsetter and leave it at that.
Here's to self improvement!

17 to first mini goal

Okay, so I am only 17lbs away from my first mini goal, granted that is more than I have lost so far but only by 2lbs so...
I lose that and then it is like I never fell off the wagon, I will be right back where I was before I gave up on everything and let food try to cover my emotions.
I will be good for the rest of today, I will clean my apartment and I might get in a swim before dinner at my in-laws. Also, I am going to cut my hair and post a survey on FB about it because I am now self conscious about it because strangers keep complimenting it....we shall see...
Gotta go start cleaning now though.

SATURDAY, SATURDAY, SATURDAY!!!!!!

Okay, maybe it isnt that exciting but I have lost another 3lbs this week, which is AWESOME considering that unscheduled weigh in earlier this week.
I feel good, actually I feel somewhat nauseated and my face is burning off but other than that I feel good!
Not really sure what is wrong with me but started feeling weird last night at work. And haven't shaken it yet. Still trying to decide whether or not to go visit Tracy today.
We shall see, but go froggy go....

yummy

yogurt, apple, granola... is there a greater way to start the day. Okay, yes I could also be exercising but I think we know that isn't going to happen yet.
I really need to, because muscle burns calories faster than fat does but...
I was awakened about 30 minutes ago by a loud bossy kitty...on a completely unrelated note does anyone know if it is safe to give a cat Nyquil, and if so what dosage...oh yeah and how do you get a cat to take Nyquil??? (just kidding Kelsey & Nathan, I wouldn't do that no matter how much of a bully Lulabelle becomes)
Okay, so I know I have always said you shouldn't weigh yourself, except for on weigh in days...but when have I ever listened to my own advice...please people.
Anyway on Monday when I weighed myself I had gained back 5lbs....AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH, today however I weighed myself and am down 2 since weigh in day so if I can maintain that I will be happy.
I just hope it doesn't go up again. (I am being good, just need to keep on track.)
Maybe tomorrow morning I will start my morning workout again. I wonder how many calories you burn just dealing with the heat....

Another week on the wagon

Greg and I kind of fell off this weekend...let's just say there was chinese food involved and leave it at that.
I am however back on track and doing fine.
I will do this, I have too.
I am so tired of feeling this overwhelmed by my own body. I used to love my body and feel cozy in it, and I will get there again. Heck that isn't even my final goal.
It is only 60lbs away...did I really say it is ONLY 60lbs away????
Little steps...
20lbs to where I was when I fell off the wagon last time.
26lbs to first milestone
15lbs to where I was when I met Greg and where I felt the coziest in my body. We will address the rest of the goals at that time, which should be before I turn 90 right????
Sorry, for some reason I feel daunted in this today.

2 more down

It seems small but if I can consistently deliver 2lbs per week I will be at my first mini goal before Halloween!
My second mini goal before Greg's birthday and to the weight I was when I met Greg before my birthday. This can be done, I like breaking it up into bite sized pieces. Okay maybe I shouldn't have phrased it like food...now I want mini Snickers bars. Arrgh vicious food battle.
I can do this I am one of the strongest people I know...of course that could just mean I hang out with wimps....naw.

Right so week two back on track

It has gone pretty well considering. I have been pretty stressed and didn't "stress eat". (at least not until yesterday, but today is a new day right? right)
Today, I will make healthy choices and today I will be strong and self assured, and all that good stuff.
I feel as I get older I become less and less sure of myself, so that some days I feel like a different person than I used to be. Maybe I shouldn't be writing this on so little sleep, it probably isn't even making sense but since Kelsey is probably the only one following at this point I guess that doesn't matter.
I am less confident and more easily unnerved by others oppinions... Not good, I want to get healthy and be my self assured happy self.
I will do this.
I am having coffee right now and need to make a healthy breakfast choice. Tomorrow is weigh in. Let you know how that goes then...

Back on track and kicking butt.

Okay so I started my new job and walk a minimum of 1 mile a day, (to and from the car) that coupled with my making much healthier choices for meals has resulted in the first week loss of 10lbs. THAT'S RIGHT 10lbs!!!!! I am very excited only 20lbs to my first mini goal. They are again as follows:

First:Back to where I was when I fell of the wagon.20lbs
Second:26lbs
Third:15lbs to where I was when I met Greg
Fourth:15lbs because the total to next goal was too daunting
Fifth:21lbs to major milestone
Sixth:19lbs to goal for reassesment

So let's see what comes of this.

Okay so...

Weighed in and gained back less than I thought...at least I am not back where I was when I started. (just shy by 22lbs. but hey who is counting...oh right that is part of the word ac'count'able isn't it..)
Anyway, I haven't hardcore started back on track but had a yummy salad with chicken breast sliced on it for lunch and have been pretty good today. (I did skip breakfast but had to make it to an appointment and so didn't have time.)
Oh well, I am going to get better at this as time goes by, that is what I have learned from past experience. The more you work at it the longer you do it the better you get at it.
So here is to, keeping on keeping on.

THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!!!!!!!!!

Okay, I went swimming with my friend Deb today and we were talking about how we both want to get healthy and I realized I just need to get back on track.
This week may not be the best week for it but it is going to be a one day at a time thing.
Tomorrow I am going to weigh in and reset everything.
Greg and I are going out on Wednesday and while I know it isn't going to be a good day I can make the day before and each day after it good.
I am starting my new job soon and don't want to start it feeling this unhealthy and bad about myself.
The pool is open and I should do laps each day, there is no reason not too. (except when I have been sunburned)
This is it I am back on track and ready to roll baby!

.6 lost is better than .6 gained

So, I forgot to weigh in yesterday and so did it this morning and only lost .6lbs which is better than not losing and is MUCH better than gaining.
I need to be more focused this week and will begin my morning exercises again to try to help myself get motivated(they also help my back which, this may come as a shock but, it's gotten much worse since I put all of this weight back on.)
I am going to focus and exercise and it should fall into place.
Today my sister-in-law, Greg, and possibly my father-in-law, are going to a showing of a house. (Since we are somewhat doubtful about financing I am not entirely sure why everyone in town wants to come with but...)
Let you know how everything turns out. And I will stay on track!

3.6 baby

That's right I wasn't even trying hard this week and still lost 3.6. I really need to make sure I just keep in the habit of good choices and I will accomplish all that I am hoping to. This can be done, it just takes patience (which I usually don't have) and persistence (which I have excessive amounts of so I guess it balances out right?)
This mornings breakfast is left over quiche, made with fat free feta and fresh spinach, and egg substitute. It was really good last night we will see how it stands up to reheats.

PAYDAY!!!

Yeah, payday means I get to buy healthy stuff to have in the house so that I don't end up making pizza every night. (Not that I won't make pizza, I actually think I am going to on Wednesday if Beth comes for our meeting)
I am working on plans for the first annual "Hoosier Aunts Tea" which will be held at my Mother-in-law's house and I am going to try to keep it somewhat healthy. (we shall see how well that works out.)
I have to weigh in tomorrow and I haven't been the best at being "good" this week so the scale will tell just how bad I did.
Oh well, all I can do is keep on keeping on and work toward my goals.
I am also working on getting some of our debt cleared up so that feels awesome.
Greg and I want to get into a house sometime in the near future and eliminating our bad credit and rebuilding is essential to that.
I am exhausted and need to go to bed now. Will post my weigh in results tomorrow.

Lost my post.

I wrote an extremely enlightening and witty blog post but the virus wiped it out and since I have no idea what it was, I cannot recreate it....sigh.
Anyway I need to keep on track, and focus on the things that matter to me.
I can do this, I will do this.
I am also working on our credit and hoping we can get into a house by the end of this year. Not sure on that one, have to talk to our credit counselor about it.
Anyway, I am just glad to be virus free and online outside of the library.

New Englandah loves grits film at 11.

Okay so one serving of instant grits, 1/2 tablespoon of butter, and 1/2 tablespoon of brown sugar is 180 calories, and make me happy. I usually have a hard boiled egg with it as well to add some protein to keep me full longer but, this is my new favorite. Not as healthy as the blueberries, fiber one and almond milk but not as expensive either so...
Anyway I am hoping that after I finish cleaning my apartment today I will have ambition to actually post an updated picture. It won't vary much from the original but it is more current(obviously since the other was posted January of 2009, I believe...)
Anyway, I am on the right track just need to keep on it and focus on the things that are important.

Week one weigh in I am all in

Drumroll pahleez.....
6Lbs. Not as good as when I started back up last time but I also didn't gain it ALL back, (just shy by 26Lbs; okay to the skinnies out there that might seem like a bunch but really when you are talking about numbers this big it is easier to gain than you might think.)
I also wasn't the best I have ever been at this. I just limited my intake of really bad for me stuff which is going to get harder this week as we are pretty broke and limited on meal fixin's. (my fault I paid a big bill off last week with some of the grocery/gas money, which while it is helping us with the goal of straightening out our credit, it doesn't really help with the having healthier food on hand.)
Alright though as long as I focus and keep on track we should see this through. My first mini goal is to get back to where I was when I fell off the wagon, then the next is to get to my first milestone, and we shall see where we go from there.
1st mini goal: 16Lbs
2nd mini goal: 32Lbs(from mini goal 1, from here obviously it is 48Lbs.)
I can do this, and so can you, whomever you may be and whatever you are working towards. It isn't as hard as we try to make it. Now I must go drink coffee and have some breakfast (skipping meals is very bad for dieting.)

Been quite some time

Okay, so I know I haven't been being anywhere near as good with this as I was. I am a stress eater and have a tendency when life gets rocky to lose sight of the wagon altogether. But, today is the day I start back on the road I was on. I have gained back a bunch of the weight I have lost and this weekend I will probably post a new picture to start where I am at now. My first goal is to lose 50lbs. (I know I can I did it before). Then it is just a matter of continuing healthy eating and excercise and then we will see where we go from there.

Look at that poor fishy....

Sittin' still like that. He might not move next week either seeing as Monday is my birthday and Greg always makes me baked mac & cheese and we get a Carvel cake....not very diet friendly.(but birthdaylicious!)
I look forward to it.
I do however need to start really exercising I have been so lax in that aspect of my wellness plan for this year. I really need to get on it. I made it past the nineteenth of January though with all of my resolutions and if I can make it all year long they will be completely second nature and I will have to think up new resolutions for next year. Maybe I can take up drinking so I have something to give up...

Today is going to be a cheat day

With the stress what it is in my work right now, (one of the women I worked with whom I really liked, got fired today) and everything else I am going to have a calzone for dinner, or pizza and you know what I don't care what it does to the scale on Saturday.
I know I should but being the queen of stress eaters I can't help it; I know it will make me feel better(short term I also know) but it is what I was taught from a very early age.
I will write again on Saturday for now I just need grease.

Weigh in day!!!

Okay so I have hit that point I knew I would where it is 2lbs a week. Which is fine it just seems a little frustrating because of how much weight I still have to loose. I can do it though right? Of course right.
Today my sister is coming to see me which I am very excited about but my house was cleaner a week ago, still I am excited she is coming. We are going to Sam's club to split a membership and get some stuff. I am going to check their prices on apples (for my breakfast specialty)
I still have a ton of "healthier" chili left so that is what Tracy, the kids and I are going to have for lunch, I will make Mr. Pickypants a grilled cheese or baked potato.
Anyway...
Two more pounds down and many more to go before I sleep, but I am only 5 away from my first goal and from meeting my pledge on the Biggest Loser Pound for Pound challenge so there you go.
Blog atcha later.

Tomorrow is weigh in day

And let me just tell you it had better be worth it because I have been wanting to do nothing but eat all day and I kept myself in check so....
Let's just say if I didn't lose I will be somewhat upset to say the least.
I am working towards a healthier me though and that is what really matters so...
Tomorrow when Tracy & kids come down I might see if she wants to try the fitness center at my complex. I should probably warn her though so that she doesn't come wearing a skirt or anything.

still on track and feeling great about it

I have to admit I am proud of myself. I have stuck to it for three weeks now and will continue to do so. It feels good and I have more energy, my back feels so much better and once I start exercising it is only going to get better.
I can do this.

gotta keep it short

I have ground turkey taco meat going on the stove so I can't blog long.
Just wanted to stop in and say I am keeping on track and fighting the munchies for all I am worth.
I did have some half & half in my coffee today but you know every once in a while something like that isn't going to completely derail the train.
Now if I had added half & half to a carmel macchiato that would have been a different story.
Ortega(TM) now puts out a Whole Grain Corn Taco shell, which is healthier and has fewer carbs for Greg which is always a big plus.
I am very excited about being good....does that make me a freak?
(I can live with that, it wouldn't be the worst reason I have been considered a freak.)
Keep smiling attitude really is everything.
~m

One year

I started blogging on year ago today and look, I am down 39lbs.
That is very good. Not as good as it could have been if I had stayed on track all along but still nothing to sneeze at.
Did good today, which is good because Greg & I had a "cheat day" yesterday although considering I had only had 1/2 cup of lowfat yogurt, 1 med apple and 1/3 cup of low fat granola I don't know how much damage I really could have done.
Anyway I am feeling soooooo much better. My back has improved (wonder of wonders, drop a toddler and all of the sudden, your back feels better.)
Anyway, I will be having dinner late tonight because Greg is running late from work so I need to tide myself over...oil popped popcorn here I come.

Weigh in day....

Down 5 more lbs. I know that it won't keep up at this rate but it feels really good while it does.
Anyway I am going to my sister's today. And will check to make sure there is still some Laughing Cow and Celery there first. YEAH!!!!!
I was kind of worried that I hadn't been as good because I haven't been writing all of my calories down but it looks like I am still making healthy choices and that is what really makes the difference.
Only 7 more pounds to that first goal!!!!
I am so excited.

This is why you should never weigh yourself daily

Earlier yesterday I was down 1.5lbs and now I am right back where I was on Saturday, which is frustrating because I have been really sticking to it. It makes it harder to stay good when there is no change. "Why should I it isn't going to make a difference anyway?" shut up internal voice of dissension, we are going to keep on keeping on. I really should have made a better choice for breakfast today as it needs to carry me through until about 1pm and all I am having is a whole wheat bagel with some low cal cream cheese (1.5TBS) and coffee. More protein would have been helpful but it is too late now. I will bring a fiber bar to curb the hunger til lunch.
Gotta go get ready for a busy, hopefully calorie burning day at work.

Weigh in day 1 2010

8lbs baby!
Take that holiday backsliding!
Yeah! So now I only have 12lbs to loose until I am back where I was before I fell off the wagon. I should be able to do that in 6 weeks at most and then everything else that comes off isn't just playing catch up! Woo Hoo!
As of the 18th this blog will have existed for 1 year (even if I didn't write every single day....week....okay so I skipped a few months but still I am back to plugging away and I will get this done!)
I will feel so much better if I can get back to the weight I was when I met Greg. Only 51 more pounds and I will be there. Dang! I gained a 6 year old since I met my husband. (actually since I already lost 34lbs it was a 85lb person. Wow!)

I will spread forth my healthy dogma....

So tonight was the first in our Friday night dinners with my inlaws. We had as good as I could make it and still have everyone eat it chicken "pot pie" (made with Bisquick Heart Smart mix, skimmed milk and low fat chicken breast)
I had my favorite breakfast again (aside from Bayou kitchen corned beef hash with eggs over medium with a side of homies...man now I want Bayou breakfast.)
Any way what I have is also on the menu at the Bayou, they call it a "Ginty bowl" I call it apples (that is what I usually put in mine) yogurt and low fat granola and it makes my tummy happy.)
I had to eat kind of stupidly today because I was going to be late for work and needed to eat lunch before I left because I needed to work straight through the 6 hours I would be there. So I ate two slices of that Healthy Life(tm) whole wheat dry with 1 1/2 slices of Jenny O turkey breast, and two pieces of light string cheese.
All in all not bad it just made me oober hungry for later on but I still made good choices so, I guess it is okay.
Tomorrow I am going to make some split pea soup and am not sure just how bad that will be for me....will have to check and see.
Oh yeah and I am back to Saturday mornings being my weigh in day so tomorrow we can see just how much of the 20lbs I put back on I have taken off again. (come on 10, just kidding I will be happy with any loss.)
Just putting on my pants today made me happy because they are fitting better again. I was getting worried there for a little bit.
Well, I will let you all know what the deal is tomorrow.

Seriously????That long huh?

I can't believe it has been so long that I have been "off the wagon"
Well, better late than never.
I did however gain back 20lbs...how can I put on so quickly what it takes me so long to remove?
Oh well, time to focus on the future. My first goal is to lose that damned 20 I gained back.
Here are my goals in order for now, I will probably add more at some point:
1-lose the 20lbs I regained
2-lose the 24 to get me to a roundish number (no pun intended)
3- lose the 15 to get me to weight I was when Greg & I met
4- lose the 35 to be under 200
5- lose the 15 to get to my original goal weight
(might add more at that point, ya never know but I was feeling at my best at that weight so we shall see.
This week I am just getting back into the healthy eating habit, then maybe next week we can think about adding some exercise beyond the exercises my chiropractor gave me.
Too cold this week to walk anyway.